Where it all began.
Determine your true goals.
Stop putting your self last
Live life on your terms.
Where it all began.
Determine your true goals.
Stop putting your self last
Live life on your terms.
One being with my now husband. I know when we first dated back in 2010, he was in a bad place and didn’t want to drag me along, so he did what he thought was the right thing to do at the time and abandoned me at Newcastle train station in NSW (I had come down from QLD to see him). He said he’ll see me around and left. It was over a year before I heard from him.
After things ended with Ashley the first time (my now husband), I spiralled.
I would question my self-worth all the time.
Am I worthy of a very normal, loving family? Am I worthy of having a loyal partner? Am I worthy of having a good job? Am I worthy of having friends who actually like me for who I am and aren’t going to bully me? Am I worthy of having my own family? Am I worthy of having my own money? Am I worthy of being independent?
I became 40 kilos overweight. I was miserable and in another toxic relationship. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. I was still living at home and it was such a sad and negative environment to be in.
My boyfriend at the time broke up with me and so I did what any insecure and unhappy girl would do, I decided to go and better myself – for him.
I slammed myself at the gym. I changed my diet drastically. I gave up on becoming a hairdresser (after finally figuring out what I wanted to do) and just got any job that would earn me money and help get me on my feet.
TRUST IN THE DIVINE TIMING
One day at a time and over time, things shifted. I realised I wasn’t doing it for him anymore, I was doing it for me.
Which was a good thing, because it turns out – he was cheating on me anyway.
But what I had learned was that I needed to set boundaries for myself and stick to them. I learnt that I was able to better myself – for me!
Which is when Ashley came back into my life – the second time.
This time I was able to set boundaries within our relationship because I had started to realise my self-worth
But this isn’t a fucking fairy-tale, this is real life.
While things were going strong in my relationship with Ashley, in 2015 I experienced my first ever severe anxiety attack, and I began to have a fear of death because my Nona passed away and I actually felt her passing.
Because I felt that, I freaked out – like oh my god, there’s something wrong with me!
And I started to have this fear of death because I was the one supporting my family through the passing of my Nona, I was the backbone, and it really made me think, fuck, if I was to die, how is everyone going to survive.
I had realised that I was really struggling and challenged with my anxiety. I would become paralysed from the neck down, I had been hospitalised 3 times, and even got to the point where I had to have an EGI done to monitor my heart.
The doctors kept telling me it was just anxiety, but I kept telling myself I was going to die – because that’s what it felt like.
So, I decided to take action and started working with my beautiful naturopath, Saphy.
But I wasn’t an easy sell.
Something needs to fucking change, I’m sick of this.
That’s when I started to listen to my intuition. I started to pay attention to what my mind and body were telling me.
I read books, listened to podcasts, watched YouTube videos, worked with mentors and coaches; Melissa Ambrosini being the catalyst for my mindset transformation – if you haven’t read her book ‘Mastering your Mean Girl,’ put it on your MUST-READ list.
It was the only book I had ever read in a week and it was moments of clarity after moments of clarity! It really helped me to realise that I wasn’t a looney for wanting to believe that there was more.
I had a fire in my belly. I wanted more, and I was going to get it.
I had this belief that if I continued to work on myself every single day, the outcome would be better.
I stayed focused on the day ahead of me rather than the months ahead of me. I had no idea where I was going to be in a year, but I knew that I had what I had in that day and I worked with what I had in that day. I worked with the hours in front of me, not the days ahead of me.
DONT LOSE YOUR SELF
That after years of being told I had an intuitive gift – I was going to embrace that part of me and incorporate it into my everyday life and now coaching business.
I went to a crystal shop and bought my first deck of tarot cards and started paying closer attention to the intuitive messages that were coming through for me.
The spiritual side of me really brought all the pieces of who I am together and made me realise that there is always more to learn and more to do.
It made me ask questions like, ‘how will this make me a better person?’
I started using journaling as a powerful tool in my everyday life, I decided to listen to my intuition and go to a life changing Tony Robbins event and now, I will be a certified NLP practitioner.
My life is so different now. There is so much light and positivity surrounding me. Good things keep happening because I work on myself every day.
I bettered my health and had a miracle baby with my amazing husband. I’m truly living in my essence and putting myself first. Self-love is an everyday thing for me now – it’s helped me to know who I am and fall in love with who I am and my authenticity.
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